i'm curled up under piles of blankets and pillows, i feel a strange longing to stay up late tonight. there isn't anything particularly important for me to accomplish as of right now, but i am unable to sleep. therefore i will write.
i have had many a surprise today. i didn't realize that i could hang out at wal-mart for an hour and be entertained and amused for the most part. i was also glad that my nausea passed. even after arby's. meatloaf. airheads. and chicken nuggets. maybe it's because i had my someone to take care of me.
i have to be honest, i don't know what i'm really doing right now. i am going to school but i am wondering when i will reach that point when i can tell people exactly.what.i'm.doing. i still don't know. but i told graydon tonight about some thoughts that have been stewing up in my mind for a little while. which is why i read over the GRE practice tests and got a little queasy again...argh
also, this summer is going to be fantastic. i cannot wait to spend my lazy summer evenings in a park somewhere in salt lake city, and i am anticipating an amazing vacation with my love. i also can't help but attempt to wrap my mind around the idea of being married. also. am i really turning 21? my new license does look significantly more haggard...heh.
i must also announce that i haven't had cravings for shopping these days. i have to be honest, i am completely out of the whole swing of things. i am afraid that i don't know what is cool/cute/fashionable anymore. have i really become an old woman? i just don't have the energy to figure out what is stylish. i am trying to tone down whatever sort of style i had going on before and just dressing up so i don't freeze while walking on campus.
i really like not having money. i am super excited to spend my early years with graydon scraping for loose change (i love change, if you hate your pennies, i will gladly remove them from you...)and not having to worry about anything but basic needs. i am longing for moments with graydon when all we really have is a dumpy couch and a book to read.
wow. maybe i should go to sleep now. this has all summed up my greatest longings for this day.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
hello hello
i am currently sitting in one of the best places in the world...next to graydon.
i have been excited about spring semester. i don't think i mind the cold as much because i know i will have a hand to hold when the wind gets sharper and when the snow forms piles of little men on people's yards.
graydon and i meet occasionally on campus, and i have to say that college is much better when you can walk into a huge library, likely full of thousands of books you'll never read and people you'll never meet eyes with, and be able to walk directly to that spot where you know someone will be.
school has been interesting so far. i am taking four classes this semester. i am inching closer to graduation but i can't help but think that i will miss learning in a formal setting. arabic is intense and my english classes are rigorous. i also can't deny how intrigued, yet still skeptic, i have become of ancient egypt.
mindy went to the inauguration. sort of. her and george are cool kids for sure, livin' the life in Annapolis on the weekends. michelle and brad are still a lovely married couple and jerry & mindee are expecting a baby boy: Tayden!
i have come to realize that i really appreciate when people listen to to my current love story. especially my mom...she does an amazing job at helping me fulfill my goals and dreams. my sisters also support my every move involving my future plans with graydon.
i don't know what it is about these past few weeks that has confirmed many feelings of mine.
maybe it's when graydon gets excited about solving a chemistry problem.
or when he wears dark jeans.
or when he wraps his hand around mine.
or when he smiles at me, walks me to my car, and scrapes my car windows....
not to mention when i never tire of being with him.
i would say things are marvelous. i would say that it's going to take me a little while longer to finally realize that this isn't all a dream...
i have been excited about spring semester. i don't think i mind the cold as much because i know i will have a hand to hold when the wind gets sharper and when the snow forms piles of little men on people's yards.
graydon and i meet occasionally on campus, and i have to say that college is much better when you can walk into a huge library, likely full of thousands of books you'll never read and people you'll never meet eyes with, and be able to walk directly to that spot where you know someone will be.
school has been interesting so far. i am taking four classes this semester. i am inching closer to graduation but i can't help but think that i will miss learning in a formal setting. arabic is intense and my english classes are rigorous. i also can't deny how intrigued, yet still skeptic, i have become of ancient egypt.
mindy went to the inauguration. sort of. her and george are cool kids for sure, livin' the life in Annapolis on the weekends. michelle and brad are still a lovely married couple and jerry & mindee are expecting a baby boy: Tayden!
i have come to realize that i really appreciate when people listen to to my current love story. especially my mom...she does an amazing job at helping me fulfill my goals and dreams. my sisters also support my every move involving my future plans with graydon.
i don't know what it is about these past few weeks that has confirmed many feelings of mine.
maybe it's when graydon gets excited about solving a chemistry problem.
or when he wears dark jeans.
or when he wraps his hand around mine.
or when he smiles at me, walks me to my car, and scrapes my car windows....
not to mention when i never tire of being with him.
i would say things are marvelous. i would say that it's going to take me a little while longer to finally realize that this isn't all a dream...
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