pine pine pining away...

okay. so i just got done e-mailing graydon which will be the fifth to last time that i will have to.

it is so strange. he is truly my best friend and i am so excited to see him. i know that things will be different...

but i think things will be so much sweeter and endearing.

i have about five weeks of school left. arabic is killing me. it is the first time that i haven't completed all of the homework because there is little to no time for me to do so. my english classes are going great, i have never done so well on tests and essays before, i am glad to say that i enjoy my major.

let's see...i have been sick this past week. it is getting a little old to say the least. i really want to just do what i want when i want. i am sad that i haven't been able to do yoga for awhile and i am also sad that i haven't had a chance to take trax to school as often; sometimes it's hard getting up an hour earlier when you're sick.

i am in my fourth month of accutane. blekh. the thing is amazing in itself though. my skin feels soooo much better. the only drawbacks are: dry lips, sometimes weird dryness of hands and arms, the inability to concentrate (really, i can't concentrate at all and it drives me crazy) and the occasional crying spell which lasts for a minute or two and ends abruptly with no lingering emotional depression. i feel fine. i am just hoping that the next and final time that i get my blood drawn, it will run smoothly. last time, the woman delved into my vein for about five minutes. she poked me a couple times. it hurt but hey i am still alive and my veins are still Inside my arm.

um. Mindy is leaving me for D.C. in january. no, i am sooo excited for her. and for michelle and brad's wedding next month. so much is happening in my family, it just makes me so happy and i feel so blessed. cocoa is doing great, too. he signed up for facebook the other day.

i don't have much of a social life but it doesn't bother me. i usually study on the weekends after work or i hang out with my sisters when they're not socializing. it is strange watching how my circle of friends has shifted so drastically but i fear that these things are necessary.

anyway i just learned today that even when you are sick, you have no excuse to not help other people. you can still serve people in the smallest way when you feel like you are the most unable. i think if everyone were to recognize that they can change someone's day/life with simple things, that our world would be so much happier.

i really love my family, too. did i mention that?

and ever since mindy told me what 'petit ami' meant, i have been obsessed! it is so cute.